*Sleepless Beauty...

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

RENT

It's playing right now on my DVD. You know, RENT, the musical. IT's actually a broadway musical but it just recently got made into a movie.

It's a pretty controversial story, about a group of bohemiens in NY just trying and barely getting by. Includes a cross-dresser who is with another male, a pair of lesbians, drugs, etc. And not to mention about 90% of the characters actually have HIV. One even dies of it.

BUT!! WARNING: Never, NEVER EVER watch in front of your narrow-minded parents.

All throughout Maureen/Joanne or Collins/Angel's duet my father couldn't stop making outraged noises. I should be the one doing that. He's ruining one of my favourite musicals!! He even called it a 'bad show' cos it promotes homosexuality and such. So I said "Only you think that"

"Don't you ever think like that, okay!" he said.

Sigh..... Sometimes, I'm thankful that I didn't inherit all of his traits. I'm grateful for all the other things, but I'm also immensely grateful that I'm not that narrow-minded or judgemental. Imagine if everyone were like him. People like those in the show die because of that.

It really makes me wonder, what if I brought home a girlfriend one day. I'm not a les, but I'm not closed off to the idea. That also doesn't mean I'm gonna go look for one specifically. But I won't turn someone down just cos of a person's gender.

I mean, think about it: "Love know's no bounds", "All you need is Love". How can people promote that and still be so choosy about who you love? Or worse, who other people love. Like it is seriously any of their business.

Well, maybe I've said these all before, but I'll say it again and again because I believe it's something worth repeating. If there's any religion to worship, it's Love.

:D
LYL

Written at |7:03 AM|

Carpe Diem...

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

3's the Magic Number

I passed 2.01 for motorcycle on the third try. Tomorrow I'm going for 2.02 for the 3rd time also. My turnings are still wide.Well, I'll try again and again till i get it.

:D
LYL

Written at |5:37 AM|

Carpe Diem...

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Again

I almost typed in the same title. I don't know why I feel so angsty. I don't like it. I want to be happy. But there are so many worries. I have so many things I want to do but I don't think Im trying enough to do them. It's my own fault anyway.

I'm going on a diet again starting tomorrow. I think the root cause of all this is my weight. I seemed fine when I was working towards the goal of losing weightr. Maybe that's what I'm lacking - a solid goal to work towards to. If it's one thing I've learnt about myself, is if there is no goal to work towards to, I hardly work at all.

:D
LYL

Written at |5:30 AM|

Carpe Diem...

Friday, March 09, 2007

Is it just me?

Or does it seem like I'm an utter failure in everything. Maybe it's because I have brother that's better in almost everything that matters just 1 year older than me, and I seem to live in his shadow. Or that I have a sister 2 years younger that is mroe talented in ways that are useful.

Does that make me useless? I just wonder.

I don't think anyone thinks that. Not anyone in my family. But sometimes, it just makes me feel that way. I guess my attitude has some contributions towards that to. But often, I feel like I'm not wanted... That's too harsh. Perhaps just that I don't fit in.

I have to remind myself more oftent than not that I don't care what other people think of me. And I think because of that I try too hard. I overdo it a lot. But if I don't, I get really insecure. Hell, even when I do it I still feel insecure.

I'm afraid I won't pass my driving. I'm afraid of not pasgin my motorcycle lessons. I'm afraid I make shitty short films and I won't get accepted anywhere, school or corporate. I'm afraid I'll lose my friends with the shitty way I treat them. I'm afraid I'll let my family dwn in everything I do.

But really, I can do it. I can do anything I say I can do.

I can.

But that sounds pretty desperate too.

Love,
LYL

Written at |5:55 AM|

Carpe Diem...

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Much better

Yes, as you can see, I'm feeling much better now. I guess I just needed some company. MY sis took care of that. We had a nice dinner last night. Topped by a generous amount of shopping where I bought a new m)phosis jacket. It was 50% off. My sis paid for me. I wanted to treat her to tcc (she was eyeing the brownie) but it was full-house. Too bad. We went for bubble tea instead.

I felt muh better when I went ofr driving today. Mostly because I got my group instructor, Mr Ting who I talk a lot with. Well, more than usualy anyway. Haha. My courses went quite well. I hit a kerb once when I was outside on the road though. And he says I need to be careful, ensure I do my safety-checks and stuff. And my turning. My circuit is still fairly ok. But I do tend to get a little confused.

Enough about that.

Tomorrow is the Studio Project presentation and I forgot! I have to go for my brothers prize presentation in the morning. Hopefully I can get back in time. Nobody else is here to go except me and Ka. So I must go. I think it'll be no problem though. It starts at 0800hrs.

The School Bullying Project pitch is postphoned to Friday. Lucky for me. I'm still trying to figure out how to pitch it. My sis gave me some pointers (well, she is a business student) and hopefully it'll be ok. I think my teacher did give us some notes on how to pitch an ideae before but i can't find them. I'll just have to make do. So I'm going to do it now.

Love,
LYL

Written at |7:39 PM|

So freaking....argh!!

I can't even begin to describe it!! I went for my riding stage 2.01 today and it was a total Failure!!! Yes! With the capital 'F'!! Scratch that. Make it capital everything. FAILURE.

Urgh. I saw soooo many omens. I had a bad feeling from way before I even left my house. I had a stomachache. Then the feeling of anxiety wouldn't go away. I got the number 4... I should have changed the bloody number. I saw it and I went, "Shit"

But then I thought, don't be so superstitious. It's all your own skill. The number has nothing to do with it.

I'll never tell myself that again, that's for sure.

It was so bad I almost cried! On the course! I almost wanted to tell my instructor that I wanted to stop and go back. I think the only reason why I didn't was that firstly, I had to find him and, secondly, I would have to stop at god-knows-what obstacle beside him to talk to him!!

And considering how my stopping was throughout the whole lesson, I didn't think that was very healthy.

Hai... anyway, I convinced my sis to bring me to Fish & co. to eat the smoked salmon salad. Hopefully, that'll cheer me up. A little.

Love,
LYL

Written at |12:13 AM|

Carpe Diem...

Monday, February 26, 2007

IT Got In!!

YEah!!! My Threadless submission got it!!! It's in the scoring charts now!!! BUt I went to see the comments. So far, not that good. Lots of people scored but according tot he comments, the work's unfunished. Looking at it, I kinda agree.

But no harm in scoring for me!!!

Click on the link below!!!

If it doesn't work, go to http://www.threadless.com/submission/110854/I_ll_give_you_my_clover

Love,
LYL

Written at |6:25 PM|

Carpe Diem...

Thursday, February 22, 2007

Score for ME!!!

Hey I just put a slogan up on Threadless.com. Go check it out and score for me!! (just means giving me points so that my slogan would get chosen to get printed.)

If I were five, I'd wish I were a grown-up.

That's my slogan.

Love,
LYL

Written at |7:09 AM|

Carpe Diem...